i just want to go home

eating a reheated dinner infront of the computer alone and cold
and pretending that the friend u are chatting with is sitting next to you and not in singapore on msn...........

is

unbearably tiring

but i'm cindy and i'm here in melbourne,because of my choices in life.
because i knew this is the path to take.

so i'm not going to whine.

but can i just say "i just want to go home"
it's irritating to the ear and hopelessly childish.
but trust me i can whine ALOT MORE.

for now.just let me say "i just want to go home"
i will go for lessons.try not to dash out of them with a hp and singapore number in tow.
i will go for lectures and try not to doodle images of mates back in singapore.
i will cook dinners and try not to eat instant noodles.
i will sleep early and try not to sleep singapore time.
i will TRY to respond in a conversation with weird stranger boys in class.
i will TRY not to bitch slap bitchy stranger girls in class.
i will try not to eat fatty ang moh oil creamy food.

i miss my friends so badly (that's not whining....that's a fucking fact)

random quote
"because I can't help you when you're crying in your dreams.
So at least when you're awake, i want you to smile.
Let me for each tear you've shed so far
be able to make you smile."