quietness

okay i found the locker key
hahahahhahaa
so much for cindy's theatrics.

anyways
babies with their round eyes
dimples
a ready smile
and hope

makes me feel warm inside
and makes me wanna hug them really tight
but
the thought of accidentally hurting them is scary

that aside.
the month is almost up i know.what comes will come.

been working from 6pm to ard 1115pm everynight
reaching home ard 12am+
the result of kneeling down REPEATEDLY and tottering about with trays of maki,starters,udon,soba,mugs,jugs ice sake beer,ichigo and god knows what alcohol does not really hit you.........
until after u bath n take a rest on the bed.
and then the adrenaline from rushing ard work and rushing home from the dark bus stop STOPS
and you feel soooooooooooooo groggy and sleepy that you just black out very comfortably on your heavenly resting place among the pillows and toys.

and then morning BREAKS in literally with the BLARING sound of your brother's voice declaring that 10am equates to an ungodly LATE morning and that one should awake from their SACRED sleep(YES, my slumber time is as sacred as my desserttime.)

omg.i just ate half a pack of honey stars............
hahahahhaahhahahahahahahhahahhaa
this post took me 2 hours.to type.much of it was dedicated to my pillows and bed

btw i love honey stars with magnolia's choco milk

gosh.ever since i bought the W , i ahve not been running
the irony=i bought it so i cld run with my hands free.
ARGH
kk.shall run later.i swear.
lunch.rest run bath nap.work
that's the SUPPOSED PLAN of the day.

someone cancel my appetite for food plsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

oh!
i just remembered one my of my weekend lunch=with junruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
n i totally have to start on my violin lessons PRONTO.
YERP
kk.

my life at this moment now..........
is smile generating.
believe it or not.

people are giving me really weird looks when i tell them i am willinging working at a jap restaurant instead of an office job.
but i'm trying out experiences which i will probably look back on and smile when i'm older

seeing how my anxious japanese manager tend to her customers with a ready smile and great service attitude reminds me of the days in Gion with bro in kyoto.

but work does suck at times................
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i totally have no balancing skills
hahahahahahhaa

oh well
now i need to think of a way to break the news to boss that i can't work full time.n that i have to leave in late june.