the not so perfect line

2007..................
was really hard


family
friends
health
school

stuff happened.some of which i really wish were just really bad nightmares

2008.....
today-had something troubling me........changed into something that gives me hope for the new year so...decided to plan for this year.

2008
i'm not going to wish for a perfect line
cause it would never happen.
and a perfect year would also mean..........time would seem shorter and experiences would definately be lessened.

so......
i'm going to wish that
whatever time brings me and to my loved ones.
*since we can't really change destiny and irritating crap such as fate*

i hope whatever happens would make us all alittle wiser, a little more satisfied with what we have and alot more happier with ourselves and the mess around us.

and now for the most cliche new year resolutions*which probably wun come true*
(i was told by some wise man/woman in some book that new year resolutions must be detailed and realistic and must be written down)

1)try to change my negative ways.
meaning: meditating at night and sorting out what i did in the day.so that i can HOPEFULLY reflect and erase or at least modify my unwholesome behaviour
*we all know this would only be done for the 1st 2 days before i quit,but uhhh.let me soak in denial)

2)sort out my time
meaning: i did not complete whatever i started in 2007 and i really don't want this habit to continue. so.......i will try to keep a task in mind at the time. irritating myself out with the goal of perfection is also a pain in the ass.so.i will have to try to give everything a best shot and just walk away when things don't work out

3) think of my future in a detailed way
meaning: i've been on the life train but with no destination in mind and with the tracks being expectiations of family/society..............2008 means i'll be 20 and with dad being the way he is.and my future on the line.i probably have to face the fear of my future this year and really consider my options in life
(so...........i would have to be my ass down to a career councellor,read up on occupations,read up on different subjects when i can and explore new options)


k i already have a headache thinking about these crazy new year resolutions
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