our happiness

:)
everything's been resolved.
really relieved that u're so happy now.

i'm abit sad.in a normal way though.
but i feel.so very relieved.

and now.i really can start a fresh new chapter.

Melbourne gave me tears,fears and above all, hope.

i entered with fear,progressed with hesitation but the bravery and support from friends made it worth while.

2010 is going to start and Cindy can't wait to face new challenges with "zeal and zest"(lol crescent school song)

life really throws so many experiences at you.and one does collect many memories.
having idealised memories does bring a smile when one thinks of the happy past.but in a way i know it deters me from having a clearer view of the present and an unrealistic expectation for the future.

my dad had always told me pride, determination and discipline are the most important values in life.

everything in life happens for a purpose.
dad's collapse taught me how everything lasts only for a moment.I have learnt to live in the moment and have stopped my long habit of just taking things at face value. striving harder and harder to ensure i am doing my best,does bring sweat,fatigue and the temptation to give up.but i hope with his words in mind, i wil not let him and myself down.

bro's incident taught me how.
if you really love a person, you should let them go and yes you'll be sad.but you'll be a better man after you stand up and lead life your way.

my relationships this year showed me.
youth is an excuse for stupidity. but knowledge attained with adulthood brings your values into play, one must always think of all parties involved before jumping into decisions. love is only sweet when one knows who they are and what they really want out of life.

forgiveness from loved ones.
taught me how silly i am and how lucky i am to meet these people.

friends and their experiences and patience.
gave me so much support and confidence to step out of lonely holes and to lead life the way i'm proud to be.

2010 brings in a whole new chapter.
I know I can make my life happier or I can choose to live in the idealised past and not bother to look ahead.

Life seems so short and the things I want to learn and experience (bungee jumping,para gliding,lion watching,boxing,skating,flower arrangement,international volunteer work, working, to really fall in love,etc) makes me a LITTLE bit fearful of the future but overwhelmingly excited of the endless possibilities I can control and do my best in.

I love what I have now.
and as always.Regret is for others and not me as life is short and I'm too impatient.lol

2010,will begin.and this blog with its many chapters will end here.

Cheers' to all my old memories.THE END