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kaes updates
exams are over.
so today or rather just now i baked.
then since tml im going for a RATHER impromtu roadtrip (a one day affair)
cal jo and sarah + me made sandwiches
yurp

roadtrip ppl
-sarah(the organiser)
-bee hiang(sarah's friend
-aaron-bh's bro
-jo
-eugene(jo's bf)
-sam(neighbour in cs)
-cal(neighbour in cs)
-me
-yue(sarah,jo,cal,eugene's classmate)
-stanley(sarah,jo,cal,eugene's classmate)

k if all goes well.
i'll be in the car with mr cat.
no need to make new friends.
sleep,eat
stare at great ocean road scenic venues

and clear my mind of the sickening feeling or WHAT IF's

i hate it when i think it maybe so.
i rather live in complete ignorance.

mr cat is the only one who's really here for me for all the good times and the bad.
cause not everything can be said and understood.

but he knows

what is important to me.
what i really meant
and how i really feel.

meow.
i've got a week's worth of cindy time to spend before i go back to singapore.

i really loved the times we had
and memories of hurting you
really makes the acid in my chest increase.

for all those times
sorry is never enough.

but time will heal all
right?

love,like,lust is cheap.
fickle is the 'ever-black' mode

to think,guess,feel.
seems so much scarier.

i'm not an anchor to your insecurities
neither am i a replacement
i'm not the contrasting object of your rotten memories.

so view me as a single entity
and i will treat you with that much respect,accordingly.