get your ass down here now

accouncement one
-to all the asses who think going overseas to study is a BALL of fun.
well it's not...
at least not for cindy

being in melb.....studying
basically means
ALOT OF ALONE TIME.
trust me...in singapore i had days when i wanted to burn the entire human population.
well......here....i can't find anyone in my damn frigging quiet apartment to burn

food wise......
yes i am in melb...
the place which apparently has the viets,greeks,sigaporeans,msians,,,,and afew asssies.......
but boys and girls.....lemme tell u.....i miss my laksa just the way i like it...$3.50 for a large bowl in a dirty hawker centre.
i also miss eating chinese desserts......ALOT
i miss sweating when i eat them
i miss sharing them with mom,bro,dad,my neice and nephews.
i miss forcing my friends to eat my leftovers.
i miss my ex
i miss my bestie.
i miss my buddy
i miss my partner
i miss my 2 gay friends
i miss the guy whom i was seeing in singapore
i miss my classmates
i miss the cleaner auntie whom i see every weekend afternoon
i miss my gym
i miss running at night
i miss my bed
i miss my purple walls
i miss the black wall decals i have on my wall.
and thank god jae reminded me abt Mr Cat.
because at least i have mr cat to sleep with when night are so bloody cold and quiet.

i'm what u call an overall fucked up person now.
i had little or no human conversation with ppl i love....face to face......for more than a fucking month......trust me.....i am not a sane person.

and yes it shows.my frigging body clock is ruined yet again. :)))))))))))
n this is a sadsad night
cause......
i am saying all this on my blog
which means a few things.....
-internet is not steady=lack of skype/msn
-i am AT HOME,FREEZING MY BUTT OFF,ALONE,WITH NO FRIENDS,NO FAMILY, NO LIFE....ON A FRIDAY NIGHT...
how submerged in "i don't have a life" can i get!

btw i just spent 2 hours watching angelina jolie in one of her BAD OLD films.those with no script no plot and a whole lot of senseless hallmark moments?
yurp.those which u watch on tv and thank god u din waste $8 catching it in the cinemas.
btw,,,,,keep in mind....movies here are AUD$15

i know...my room will be MY place......for these few months...that's the sad thing...predicting that my room is where i would rather "chill out" when i am a frigging 21 yrd old ...who probably should be out there in a grp of say 5-6 ppl...laughing, bitching,rolling my eyes at girls who flirt in boys in cliques....and bet at which guy will get lucky next......and listen and pretend to enjoy each other's taste in music.......yurp......

anyways....i was desperate...yes the term can only be desperate....
i was desperate enough to buy giant wall decals of frigging orange daisies.....to paste on my walls.....so that it will cheer up my room......and me....in the process..

gee.....
they worked!for 5 min!....which was WHEN i was PUTTING them up....

yup

wallowing in self pity.is disgusting,narcissistic and time consuming....
but i've said my peice....
and what i really wanted to spill.....face to face....with my mates back in singapore...who when they read this post...probably would be thinking...THANK GOD she's not here....
lol

but yeah.i feel better....abit...
if only.i cld fly u guys over..for just a hug.
that would really take all the helplessness away
really