the time is ticking

it's kinda of weird now.

the australia thing.........with h1n1 ard.....mom is hesitating but i think most prob i'm still flying on the 7th of july.

i've got abt.....20 days left.
spending most of it with family now.due to the circumstances.

really worried about how things are going to be.

thursday is already planned by cxl, hopefully i'll get clearance to meet him.
the plan of thursday, apparently i have to buy instant noodles,soup,etc....
my friends faith in my cooking........knows NO boundaries

i CAN cook you know!....the edible part is a mystery though....

sometimes, i wonder if saying the truth is really the best route to follow.
and if saying it as it is would really solve the problem.

sometimes just to maintain the status quo, i had brushed aside the words.
and it did work. do i regret?.no......because i don't know what would have happened if i did release the words.

but now.i really wonder is it worth it.the truth and the conclusion.
if i knew the endings to both choices.thing would be ALOT easier.haha.NO SHIT

people often say it takes courage to tell the truth.
but often,

it takes courage to sweep things under the rug too.
to understand you'll never know what would have happened if you had said, to live with the words in your mind.

i wonder which path to take