best?or not trying at all

don't know if i tried my best.
worse feeling in the world.
i feel tired?from all the crap
exams-family-relationship

but when i think abt my actions
in terms of hours?
i don't know if i had really done my best

sometimes i think i did
sometimes i think i did my best to lie to myself
sometimes i think the time i spent doing my best=other people's worse.

if time turned back.
i probably would do the same.

the only thing i've learn from the exam period is that my bed is the most comfortable
and mr cat is the best sleeping buddy ever.

from family i've learnt in this period that.
once in a while.giving abit more even though it feels weirdly embarrassing is.gd i guess
from relationships.
every thing needs to be maintained to remain in good condition.
but if maintainence is too costly.
sometimes the thought of giving up is present.
and for that.i really don't know what is the best option to take-